Dear Anita,

 
<p class=”p1″>As I have been observing my thoughts more rather than take part in them I recognize some things about myself. I notice sometimes when I’m having a good time I worry the good time will end or that I will make it awkward and ruin it. Do you remember when we spoke about that dancing idea, when you said to be an influencer and I said something about having a social dance place that wasn’t a club cause it would be no hard alcohol at least? So last night I met some new people, M told me to trust her she met some cool people so I went out and I met this friend group who we ended up just dancing all night with and it was so much fun to dance like that. I do love to dance. And her friends were so fun and inclusive. There were moments I was dancing just carefree then suddenly I’d have thoughts of wondering what I looked like and not wanting to ruin the moment by losing my ability to dance… like losing the groove and then ruining the connection with the person. I wonder what this is all about, where those thoughts are coming from. A thorn perhaps?</p>
 

Seaturtle