Hi. An update here. I resumed talking with the ex because I missed him. Reminder – the breakup was eight months ago and bad. We have had five conversations and one meeting in one week. He took responsibility for his part and I am very impressed with the work he has done. Very impressed. He insisted that we date exclusively and insists that it is meant to be. He is all-in, all the way, even resumed the L-word. I am worried. Everything is okay right now, but you can’t just erase a bad breakup. i had a serious panic attack before our meeting. He was calm, charming, respected boundaries and trying really hard. I am genuinely enjoying the conversations, but my insides are screaming at me to back off. Six intense convos in one week…that’s a lot. I think I need a lot of time to be able to say that we’re an item again. I haven’t told my kids that we’re talking and they won’t like it, but that’s not the main thing. I just can’t get comfortable. I do love him, but I can’t give back what he is giving me right now. I mean, it has only been one week. He is not violent, but I just want to go slow. He already declared that he can’t be friends, either partners for life or nothing. That makes me feel pressure. Your thoughts are welcome, I am upset because I do love him, but I’m all torn up on the inside.