Hi Lulu

You write beautifully! I can see why you have been accepted into two great universities. You clearly have a lot of talent.

I’m sorry to hear that you’ve had the experience of feeling like an outcast. I think that’s such a shame because you seem like an awesome person.

My hope for you is based on my experience of the world. Children don’t quite have fully developed empathy. School can be a hard place mostly because of that. There is cruelty there as a result.

As an adult, people are kinder. Perhaps this won’t be entirely visible in college, but you might start to see it in some (in others, not so much). Around the age of 25 development of empathy and emotional maturity is fully established. That is when things start to get interesting!

My guess is that whichever school you choose there will be a variety of personalities. There are many different kinds of people.

Your concerns about performance on a merit based scholarship sound sensible. But it is also an amazing opportunity to be debt free. How was your performance in lofty the later years of high school? University is very much similar to me.

The opportunity to explore your roots is enticing.

I have a question, which school is better for your field?

Wishing you all the best! ❤️🙏