Dear Anita,

Thanks for your input. Well, I guess I’ve heard these things before from my grandparents, mostly, but never looked at it as an issue and after all the therapy I’ve done, I thought these things were the least of my problem now. I’ll discuss these with my therapist, too…but I confess that it’s been a struggle. I’m trying my hardest to keep on talking to him because, in one way or another, he’s been understanding, but I get annoyed and triggered so easily. If he tells me something I might view as bad or degrading about my personality (which my father used to do all the time), I get annoyed and quickly withdraw from that conversation just to avoid hurting him and making it feel like everything he does is wrong.

I’m desperately looking for that initial enchantment I felt and hoping everything I felt or at least the disposition to be with him, comes back…but thinking about it, makes my stomach twist in disgust and I’m so disappointed in myself for not “being normal”.