[quote quote=434460]Hi Debs123 If he does not reach out that is a good thing and he has done that for you. You know that this backwards and forwards pattern with him isn’t healthy. Ego boost? Quite possibly. It is nice for him to have someone that keeps taking him back over and over no matter what he does. And he can just break up and whenever he wants to! You deserve so much more. It is sad that you haven’t believed that you do. Time for that to change? Love and best wishes! ❤️🙏[/quote]

thank you!

It is very sad, as it certainly looks like I feel I don’t deserve more. I know that I do.  I let him do this to me, and it truly makes me feel like a fool.

It would be best that he never reaches out again and I somehow find a way to let it all go. I think part of the problem is I don’t understand. Everything he committed to, only to bail. Leaving me to figure out how I’m going pay the bills, figure out why he does this to me, figure out why I let him. And why I go back.

One day, one day! I’m going to get past it  😞