Hi Helcat,

Thank you for your response.

Frankly speaking, I am still struggling. But I am working to come out of this situation to best of my abilities. I am still at my sister’s place. I have not been able to share my feelings with her. Maybe I will share with her when I feel comfortable. It is not an easy task for me to open up. But I am positive to visit a therapy and get some professional  advice.

Hi Tommy,

Thank you for your straight forward advice. Please do not  consider your advice as rude. I believe the straight forward conversation is the best advice. Thanks to your advice I have started to read books on Buddhism. However, there are times I feel really low and this takes the best out of me.

Hi Anita,

Thank you for checking on me. It feels nice to know there is someone whom I have not meet or  seen but still takes time to think about others. I am thankful to you for this behavior.

I have started  practicing meditation in the morning. It has helped me a bit. I shared few other things with my brother today and I cried during the whole conversation. I am thankful to him he patiently listened to me. I plan to gradually share  my whole story  with him. Never thought opening up would be that difficult.

Yes self abusing myself mentally was some sort of seeking redemption and trying to find solace.

Thank you all for taking time to go through my post and for your response.