It took quite a bit of practice for me to understand how my mind works. That those thoughts came up but not alone. Emotions, fears, identity, attachments. Yes, we become attached to those memories and feelings. We roll them over and over again in our minds. Meditation practice allows us to regain control. To reset the order of the mind so we are in control.  Yes, those thoughts and feelings will return, the trick is to let them go. Do not react. Do not attach yourself to them. Do not identify with them. Then, your mind will return to seeing your actions and their intent. Your awareness will grow. And soon, those thoughts will not plague you. They will come and they will go. No attachment. Then you will be able to feel anew. Me?, I am still working on it. I know the work ahead. Just keep at it and life will get better. Wishing you the best. Hoping that you will find in yourself that which exist in all of us.