Hello guys,
I really want to thank you sharing and giving me advices.the truth is that maybe i had a bad behavior but you know how hard is to mantain a relationship in distance.but still i took the plane and went to Rome and i took my responsibilties,my fault but he was cold.we slept in the same bed and he touched even my hair. How can somebody who had plans with you and after a month says he dont feel nothing anymore? And the strange thing was that even when i went there and he said that its over we went to his family for lunch and dinner,he came also to my sister house for a drink.(all this happened at my last trip when i apologized for the fight that we had) I just dont understand. We borned in the same country though he lives in Rome for more than 20years.I speak with his mother on the phone,she lives also there,i speak with his grandmother,she lives here in my country,and she doesnt know about our break up,my family also doesnt know.
Im in a totally mess,just desperate and hopeless.
In my last long message i said to him that i was sorry that its over,that i was sorry that he didnt give me the chance to fix my mistakes and to show him that it wasnt the moment to break up after the plans that we had for the future,and because he was important for me. I said also to him that he will be in my thoughts and my heart until even the 1% of hope will vanish. I said to him also that what it hurts more is the fact that im affraid even to ask him:How are you? Because i know he wont reply.
At the end i said that i miss him and i want him to be ok.( wrote this message at 3am in the morning) i was feeling bad,crying all night,feeling empty.
Was a mistake to write this message?
On June is his birthday?
What should i do?
Thanks again
Very glad to talk with all of you
Looking forward to read your opinions