Dear Dawson,
I know you wont believe me if I tell you that I know exactly how you feel given the fact that Im just 15 years old but…I really do understand how it feels not liking your lifestyle or the direction that your life is going in. I have been thru’ it and gladly have overcome it too..I wont say that all it took for me to do it was just decide to be happy because that determination usually fades away slowly. I would suggest you to try to derive happiness from the little things that life offers you.
.Do you like the rain? If yes, then dont forget to smile broadly when it does and try to think that its specially for you..! Im sure your attitude will change sooner or later. When you look at your child try to feel that pride and love that your child is going to fill you with. I suggest that you spend atleast 5 minutes thanking God for giving you the life that you have.. I also feel that you have to take joy in the things you do. As I mentioned earlier, look at everything you do positively and surely you will find your drive in life. Im not telling you that this will be easy and you will be fine in no time. It will require patience and also it will need you to have faith in yourself….and if you are able to manage these two things properly then they are sure to bring about great results…
I hope I was of some help..

Take care,
Crystal