Hi Love,
What excites you? What can you do to use your talents? In your job search, have you tried working with staffing companies? They can coach you and they have relationships at companies. Also find other ways to network. Take some time to meet a couple recruiters. Take the advice from the people you meet like homework. Do the homework and then get back in touch with them and say what progress you made, your thoughts and ask more questions. My first professional job took 12 contacts with the hiring manager. He said read books I read books. He said join a professional society I joined a professional society. He hired me under a direct contract and gave me a lot of feedback on my initial work. I took the feedback (a lot of red pen ink) and did better. Go ahead and try something.
For anxiety, are you having some success with anything? Maybe CBT? Are there ways you can ease into social situations You are not alone as many people struggle and have anxiety and fear. It is ok to try and fail. You learn from it. One of the things you learn is how to cope with uncomfortable experiences. Not to put pressure on you to become famous, but to make my point, google “famous people who struggled”. Also google about “grit”.
Are you doing things that are fun? Music? Bird watching? Cooking? Volunteering? Spiritual? Travel? Sports? Hobbies? Skills? Ask people what they do outside of work. Listen twice as much as you talk. Ask more questions. Conversations lead to human interest and connection which builds relationships which lead to a fulfilling life with a good job and the rest.
Does this make sense to you? These are small but real steps you can take that leverage skills you learned in school, add new approaches and bring you forward.
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