OOOOOOOhhhh that sounds so like the same problems I was having and truthfully I think it all boils down to ourselves. We have to learn to love and respect ourselves and truly if someone you are with makes you feel very anxious and uncomfortable, I really dont know if its worth it :-/ I suffer anxiety anyway so sometimes it comes out even more so when I am in a relationship and “In Love” or maybe like you are doubting, think im “In Love”.
Its a sad lonely place to be when you are in a relationship but sometimes still feel alone and you are not getting full happinness from it. You deserve to meet someone that you can truly love and never have to feel uncomfortable with. You should be out with her and be looking at her with pride saying “Thats my Girl” 😉

Life is too short….. I have stayed in relationships for fear of being on my own, Im not sure if you would be similiar. But then again maybe you do really love her and maybe she really loves you. Perhaps she is just a social butterfly and a little flirtatious without realising! Is it maybe related to alcohol, when she goes this way??

My last word to you would be – that mountain you talk about, you will be at the top!! Maybe not with your present GF, but you will be there 🙂 Please be gentle and loving to yourself and think that if this person is making you feel so low and losing your own self worth then maybe its time to move on.

Thats a very hard thing to do I know. Im 37 and still hoping to reach the top of that mountain you are refferring to.

Keep hope and start to focus on your own happiness a bit more.

Tracey <3