Inky,

From a different angle, consider you may be experiencing a simple cycle. Run, rest, no biggie. Seeds sleep through the winter to be reborn in the spring when conditions are right. The real question becomes, how do you fair the winter? Often, when we’re running “blissed out” we become proud of ourselves, focused on flowing within our own desires, and can overlook others. This drains our numinous energy, like water emptying from a cup.

When the cup is empty, our winter feels restless, agitated. As though we don’t deserve rest, as though resting is lazy, self focus, and so forth. If this happens, consider spending more time “blessed out” and less “blessed out”. For instance, losing yourself in a good book, is fine and beautiful, but mostly about yourself – “blissed”. Losing yourself in making a meal for your family, helping others – “blessed”. When in balance, the cup doesn’t empty,and instead pours like a river. Then, winter is like a snuggly blanket that brings insight and rest.

Namaste, sister, may your cushion bring equanimity.

With warmth,
Matt