Michael,

Could I recommend a book for you? Susan Anderson’s “The Journey from Abandonment to Healing”: http://www.amazon.com/Journey-Abandonment-Healing-Relationship-Beginning-ebook/dp/B004HW88LU/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&sr=&qid=

I don’t think it solves everything, but it might give some comfort. There are actual neurological and psychological reasons for some of the feelings you are going through.

It *is* hard to let go, and I can completely relate to the feeling of wanting to be on the other side already. That said, as long as you compare your current situation with that of complete freedom and happiness, is it any wonder you’d feel even worse? Try to embrace the sorrow as well, live it and feel it. Take your time to really nurture yourself and tend to your wounds. That time of life is precious as well, and will make the times of happiness even sweeter 🙂