Good Morning!

You’re using this crush as a distraction from the iron hard reality that you will be divorcing. Maybe initially it was for that brief romantic feeling, but now it’s an emotional security blanket. It sounds like you won’t see him an awful lot, so in that sense he’s “harmless”. You will have that Peaceful Alone Place. But first, get through this divorce. It may be harder than you think it will be. And like Blue said, protect yourself.