TheAwakening, I want to believe this, I really do.

But I always feel like whenever I do take charge of my life, everyone and their expectations will hound me until I submit.
Say I do want I want, give up my job, bond with my pets, join rallies, travel, read, leave my family and my country. I’ll be criticized for not working, not paying my taxes, not living up to what others expect of my. I’ll be isolated at best, then jobless, then destitute, and sent to prison at worst. Others assert their power and limit our choices on purpose.

I keep a bottle of poison close, just in case I decide that this reality is not worth the bullshit I have to deal with.