I agree with The Ruminant 100%. You do not, I repeat, DO NOT need to feel sorry for yourself. Look at my situation. I used to be exactly like you. The only difference is I didn’t have a boyfriend, but I might get one soon. I’ll explain. There’s an event happening at my local museum and basically, single people get together to mingle, dine at the nightlife. And this special event is two weeks away! Arrgh, the agony! Back to your situation now. We both clearly have one thing in common: we tend to overthink about what happens if we do certain tasks in certain situations. We don’t tend to ask ourselves what WE want, not what EVERYONE else wants. Be positive about any changes you make.

In other words, become more optimistic, caring, and courageous in this complex and misunderstood world. Even if you need to break down and let all of your emotions out, do that. Just make sure it’s somewhere private so no one thinks you’re crazy! Again, I can relate to you. I used to be a bit of a people pleaser and I tried doing what everyone else wanted me to do. While it hasn’t been easy, I have made significant progress. I hope my words of guidanced has eased your stress a bit. I can’t promise that I’ll reply back to you right away, but when I have a chance, I will write a message to see how you’re doing.