Married men and separated men are definitely off limits from now on. I’m done with men for now. I need to heal before I can even think of being with someone else. I didn’t give myself a chance to heal after ending my relationship of 14yrs. I hated my ex (son’s father) for cheating on me, so with that said… I know what it feels like to be cheated on. It was in the end of that relationship that he admitted that he cheated on me 5x and at that time it was too late I fell in love with another man (the married man) that made me believe we were both victims of our cheating spouses. If any of the other women called me, I could’ve save time and heartache and left him. Don’t get me wrong!!! It would hurt of course but 14 years of wasted time. I hated cheaters and the married man I was with knew that. He made me believe that I could trust him and that he was a victim of it too. I was so dumb!!!

So crucify me for being stupid. I never wanted to be the other woman. I didn’t know I was.. he made me believe that he was separated and she was dating other men and had an arrangement. He stayed for financial reasons and for the kids. I believed this because he was with me all the time… not a day went by where I didn’t see him and he would only go home to sleep. He spent his time with his kids on the weekends and by dinner time he was with me. I got used to our routine and believed everything he said to me.

So for people to judge me I know what it feels like to be on both ends. Is it really that hard to find someone that can be truly honest with you?

Right now I’m spending time with my son and my family. I have to get used to being on my own. I have to let go of all my anger and choose to be happy from now on.