Thanks guys I appreciate the responses, I just ordered some books on Amazon about Buddhism and philosophy. I hope they can change my state of mind and maybe help me get motivated to try and change. I also am planning on going out to the city centre alone one of these days when i have my books and just reading them in starbucks or something so that I will at least maybe get used to being around people.

Maybe things will change, wish me luck guys!

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