Rewa, I’m sure it is tough for you right now. But hang in there. You made a promise to someone you have a lot of respect for, and that is tough to go through. You mentioned in the other post that your parents, though hurt, were ok with your choice with wanting to no longer be a nun. Is that right? You also said that you lied to them, by not telling them about seeing your guru twice, is that right too? If these are true, then I suggest opening up to your parents, especially if you feel like you’re lying to them. They might be upset again, but they will appreciate you coming forward with honesty. I can tell this situation is uncomfortable for you, but you can take steps forward by being open and honest to your parents. What do you think about this suggestion?