Thank you so much for all your answers. It really helped me to read other people experiences and pieces of advice. I am aware of all this, but I am afraid that maybe something beautiful will really happen and I just say ‘no’ without even trying. It is kind of hard, but I know I’m young and I still have a lot to learn. This is not something that will last ( I think ), but I want to see what happens next. At the right time ( and without any regrets, I hope ) I will decide that this has to come to an end.