Dear jasmine
Thanks a lot . For the last 18 yrs I have followed everything properly. I never done anything wrong wrong , yes I was unhappy but I never done anything wrong . But now ever since I took the decision I felt guilty because he asked me to think about my parents and all that why I changed it . Now everything is so wrong I m not happy I haven’t thought things will turn out this way . God now I know why I wasn’t listening to him was deep down I just can’t stay as nun . I want to moved on but it’s so hard, I never feel so helpless . Even I leave nun life , my guru will know as we live in same society . I feel sick that if I leave then what’s he gonna think about me cause even though I don’t want to live as nun , I will always respect him cause I m only leaving my nun life I’m not abandoning my dharma . Do you think after all this drama that I have created , now I want to leave . Am I a bad person