Dear jasmine

Thinking after what you have posted, yes I have accumulated so many negative thoughts and I don’t have self respect for myself. I know dharma is all about kind heart and loving nature but living in a same place with same people make me frustrated . But I have learn a lesson that I should always be true to myself n never sell my self short. Sometime I feel like I should go back to monastery n say sorry to my guru again but I know what’s gonna happen after that I m gonne be frustrated . God the more I think about this incident ,it makes me feel like a loser . Now I know what every one thinks about me . God why am I so stupid . In this incident I feel worse on my stupidity . How can I be so naive to think that every thing will be alright . Can you give me some suggestion on letting go
Of mistakes and moving forward . I just wish it all goes awAy soon . Please help me