Thank you everyone for your responses. I am truly grateful for all of your thoughts and opinions. There are a few varying view points and trust me I am looking at this from all angles.

Nikki – I appreciate your honesty. Truly. I don’t think you are rude but I can see I hit a bit of a raw nerve as you stated that you are scared of this happening with your fiance. I think a lot of what you have said makes perfect sense and I have taken what you have said onboard. I know this whole thing is doing me no good at all and something does need to change because its the what if’s that are killing me.

Helen – Another wonderful response from you. I totally agree with everything you have said. When it comes to the reciprocated feelings I have asked myself a million times if it is only percieved on my part because you are right, it’s totally in his job description to be friendly with everyone but I do sense there is something else there. I’m a fairly intuitive person and am not one to kid myself. No one is more surprised by the apparent affection he has for me than me so I have questioned it plenty.

Emma – Your response is totally different in a way to the others and you also have some valid points.I think we should be free to love who we wish and we can’t help loving someone but acting on it is another matter. Similar to The Ruminant’s response, people come and go, should we embrace the feelings and see them for what they are then move on or make a choice to act? I truly believe that even people who are in committed loving relationships feel themselves attracted to other people at times but if they truly value the person they’re with they don’t act on it. That doesn’t mean the attraction isn’t there.

Anyway I have a lot to think on. My heart has been telling me to hold on. My head tells me to let go that no good can come of it.