I didn’t 🙂 I even left out the facts about three years and me occasionally telling him to keep his distance 🙂

Anyway, something that I’ve wondered during the past couple of days was that sometimes you end up holding onto something, whilst dreaming about a specific type of future. Then something happens and you have to let go, it hurts a lot, but then somehow things turn out in a way where your dream actually comes true. Just not the way you expected it would.

So I’m thinking that I’m holding onto this one person because I think that they are the person I’ve waited for my entire life, and I’m too scared to let go, because I don’t want to lose them. But what if I’m blocking something else happening because of my tunnel vision? Or, what if he is “The One”, but me holding onto him is making things difficult and if I were to let go, things might be able to progress more naturally and we even might end up together?

I have this one book titled (roughly translated into English) “you get what you let go of”. What if that’s true? What if holding on is only making it more difficult for the right thing to happen?