The Ruminant,
Thank you for your wise words. I am going to a support group once a week and see an individual therapist who is helping me work through some of this. Yesterday my wife hid her relationship status on facebook and actually that seems to be the one thing that has actually gotten me to a little bit of a mad place. I realize it might sound silly, but that high school behavior is just obviously not of high integrity. To tell the world you are moving on before you actually sit and tell you wife is a cowardly move. My ability to see things clearly comes in waves. At times I can see things as they likely are, but most of the time I am still sad, and desperate to fix this.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 