I truly appreciate your honesty. You are definitely good at this. I don’t know how or why I have not had the strength in me to let go. i have allowed all of this to happen due to fear of letting him go and missing him and feeling like I made a mistake. There are so many things that he has said that just lets me know that his internal problems are far deeper than us. I have realized that the problems he is harnessing have nothing to do with me. I really wanted to be there and help him but i dont think I can. he is far more depressed than i expected. He has lost himself and doesnt love himself. My biggest question is How can someone love without loving themselves? I don’t think that is possible. These depression bouts that he goes through are dragging me down and while i try not take it personal, it is very hard to live a life not knowing what kind of mood he is going to be in. I have moved out these past few months and I really thought that it would be a wake up call for him to get help. I thought it was going to work out but then again I feel all alone in a relationship. So I gave him the talk of taking a time out and not seeing each other for 1 month and having a date at the end of the 1 month break to see what happens. I dont know if that was the right thing to do.

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