thanks, I am just really have become impatient. Spending time in self sorrow, It is very hard. It effects me at work, I am just watching the clock waiting to go home! And what will I do when I go home? Sit there as I have done! I am failing my kids, my GF not doing anything. I have this weekend to myself and I can not even think of anything I want to do with myself! It appears that it is going to be a rainy weekend where I live and all I can think of is sitting my home ( my room to be specific) and sit and wonder how the heck I got myself in to this mess with myself !