Hi B, I agree that you must first learn to be happy by yourself before you can share yourself with anyone else. You admit that you hate being on your own. YOu are successful, and independent but you have a desire to fulfill a void by being with and sharing with someone else. Love yourself first. It seems you havent even given yourself a chance. Also try reading The SEcret. It seems like you keep attracting the same type of men because that is what you are throwing out there. Law of attraction works both ways. If you say “I keep attracting the same type of guy” that is exaclty what you are going to continue to get. I still think that before any other relationship comes your way, you need to be able to get that inner strength that you need to be able to walk out when there are red flags. The ones we see for our friends but refuse to see ourselves because of our need to fix men. Girl, I am guilty of it too. Right now, I told my boyfriend that we needed space and that I didnt want to see him for a month, he was very distant too and depressed, so i gave him space, now he is trying to turn things around because he sees what is important, us. Let me tell you, from my experience, if you are very available to them and comforting and nice they will walk all over you but be the meanest person ever and they come crawling, lol, just saying. As women we need to remain strong before anyone that comes our way not only for our own good. Good luck, i hope you really try meditating so that you can begin to see how great of a person you really are, all by yourself.