Alpal,

The problem with asking opinion on the Internet is that other people have no way of knowing what the true nature of your relationship is, what sort of person she is and what sort of person you are. Guessing and gossiping wouldn’t be very good for anyone involved. Also, how a person presents their question is usually a better indication on that particular persons mindset at that point rather than a good description of actual reality.

Deep in your heart, you know the truth to everything that happens in your life. What ever it is that happened between you two is still something that can be forgiven so that you can either come back together again or that you can move on. Still, it needs to be forgiven.

Don’t worry about not having close friends right now. I’m going to be honest with you and say that I really don’t have any really close friends right now. I’ve been through a huge change and a lot of people were left behind in that process and I’m not sure if I want to return to some of them, because the relationships weren’t healthy in my opinion.

I also know that true friendships require work and dedication, and I haven’t put that work in. I haven’t opened myself up to others in a way that would grant me such deep friendships. But when I do decide that it’s time to forge those relationships, I know that it can’t be based on what those people can do for me and how much attention they can give me. It is going to be about finding the people who would find joy in our interaction.