Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. Everything you’ve said does ring very true with me. I do have a sense that time is slipping away and I need to make a decision now or ill never get the chance again…how dramatic! Perhaps I need to learn to relinquish that control and let life happen. I feel like I maybe need to sort my job out and then maybe ill gain a clearer perspective. I definitely need to learn how to untangle things and look at them separately…not entirely sure how to accomplish that! A month ago I was happy and strong and now I can’t seem to pull myself out of negative thought spirals that keep pulling me down and muddying my perspective. Thanks again, you’ve given me a lot to think about