Mermaid…you just described my life and relationship perfectly. I completely understand the feeling. I just moved in with my boyfriend two months ago and I have this heavy, almost depressed, feeling every single morning I wake up. I can’t exactly put my finger on why, but I hate it. I’ve struggled with the decision too. Is it just the fact that I gave up my home and moved into his territory (and all my belongings are in boxes) or am I with the wrong guy? One previous post noted that infatuation doesn’t last. I agree with that, but disagree that it should feel like I’ve been married 20 years immediately upon moving in with him. I’ve lived with other guys and this is NOT how it felt. I too analyze my relationship to death. I research things constantly and feel that it’s slowly driving me insane. (And here I am writing about it! LOL)

Being alone is no easy task either. I’m not sure if the pain and heaviness I feel now is worse or better than going through a break up, moving out, and starting over. If you find a solution, I’d love to hear about it! I wish you luck with your decision…it’s a tough one.