Hi Gen,

Thanks so much for your reply. You nailed it : perimenopause is a rollercoaster. Mine is feom hell :-(.

Thank you for the forum suggestions . I feel lost , like everything seems meaningless. Yesterday I saw a photo of my beloved mum (in it she was healthy ) . I wept the whole night away. A year has passed & I seem to still be in a state of shock & disbelief. Its so tough. Nobody cares. Nobody gets it. People make inane suggestions & expect me to * move on* ( what does that even mean ?) .

The illnesses i have plus the grief makes me so depressed . I dont wanna get out of bed most mornings.