Thank you all for your kind and thoughtful responses.

No I have not grieved the baby. I wasn’t ready. I want to be.

As for food… Yes, when I am under great deals of stress nothing tastes right, my appetite diminishes. But I do eat healthy, and I eat as often as I can but still do not gain weight easily, even if I am eating 5 meals a day. I dislike fried and fatty foods. Something needs to change though. When stress is the worst my appetite is completely gone and I literally have to set a timer on my phone in order to be mindful of meal times throughout the day. It’s a constant struggle.

No nutritionist here… I am trying to find a good local program that does not cost an arm and a leg. I can’t afford much as a single mother with no child support at this time. (That’s a whole other matter). I do have a Yoga mat & blocks at home, as well as some good DVDs. I want to take it up again and definitely need to have a good diet plan in place to ensure I am not losing weight in the process.

Matt, I will definitely look up that book, thank you. I’ve also never heard of the metta meditation practice, I’ll research it by all means.

I’m also going to attempt to book an appointment with a local chiropractor/acupuncturist that happens to be fabulous (by review) and is in my health insurance network. He also works with many holistic remedies. My body feels ravaged right now. I’m skinny, my ears ring all the time (loudly), my hair seems to be greasy all the time and I have a breakout on my shoulders and back that I have not been able to get rid of for the life of me since the miscarriage. I lost so much more than just a baby that day. I think my body just said enough.