I sometimes feel that there is an afterlife or eternal cycle, but some of me feels like it is really hard to let go of my identity in this – what am I without my memories or family? It feels really scary and cold and lonely… Perhaps I am not meant to know. I sometimes get frustrated with the universe for thrusting me into these kinds of situations. I am immature and trying to find my way, hoping that at the end I am not just nothing and with nobody.

I really appreciate your replies, sometimes hearing about other peoples’ experiences consoles me for a moment, but I know that I will need to face this alone. How do I do this?