Thank you Denise for further explaining things to me.. I will have to really look at myself and realize what is it that causes me to make so many mistakes.

I can’t help but be hard on myself because I feel horrible for everything that I caused.. I want to be a good person and right now I don’t feel like that.. how could I when I hurt the person I love most and loved me the most. He didn’t deserve this and neither did our family. And I agree people make mistakes but he is finding it so hard to forgive me which makes it hard for me to forgive myself also.