I have been in a similar situation recently. And yes, just like you i was focusing on myself. It was hard to keep a positive mind when the memories keep knocking on the back door of head. Still, i tried hard to be positive and it worked many a times. Things were worse and I didn’t know what to do with my future as my vision about future was really blurry.

I decided to take a trip to Russia. I always wanted to explore that country and off course it was a first foreign trip so it was supposed to be exciting affair. Again just like you, I was not feeling that much excited about that trip. It was my decision to make that trip happen and everyone from my family was excited except me. I really didnt plan what would I do there, the places to visit and what can i get our of this trip. Anyway i went ahead and traveled to Russia.

It took me just few hours to get out of the fame optimism and feel the real positive attitude. It was a fascinating experience. I met great people. Had some great funny incidents and met many other girls. And most important, every moment I was developing the vision of my future. I made many good friends there so didn’t hesitate to include them in my future vision. I drew a completely different life what i have every imagined to live.

So, focus on this trip. You are going to meet a very different culture and a life. Enjoy what you have and let it go what happened in the past.

All The Best!