Hi Lil Lilly, so sorry to hear that you are feeling so down at the moment, and so tearful. It sounds as though you have a lot of pressure on you, what with the studying, work, volunteering and all of your other commitments. Maybe you are physically exhausted and perhaps this is impacting on your mental health now? It doesn’t sound as if it is the best time to decide about whether to be living somewhere else, like Europe, if you are trying to cope with a break up from your European boyfriend? You may be chasing the dream, rather than dealing with the reality? Have you ever heard of Mindfulness? There are some good books you can read about it, and basically it gets you to concentrate on the moment in time, rather than looking back or forward, and it helps you to realize that whilst we are worrying about tomorrow we are missing out on the here and now, and also how many times we are so busy that it doesn’t even truly register what we are doing!!! I am glad to hear that you are going to talk to a counsellor, sometimes it does help to voice your concerns and fears and help you to sort out your thoughts about things. I would suggest that you put off making any big decisions until you are feeling much better. Just remember, the past has gone and we can’t do anything to change it, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet so we can’t even guess what it will be like, so we may as well work on appreciating the here and now 🙂
Best Wishes
Sarah-Jane