Ike and Howard C

Ike, for sure mistakes will continue to happen. Do you think there is any way of thinking more clearly when we feel that rush of hurting the ones we love? I’m meditating to learn how to control myself, so that i don’t push people away anymore….

Howard, i’m sorry to hear that…..is there any way we can help you? Listen to you? Thank you for being compassionate. I have done those things that you said, including the letter, in that night i said we talked and she said she didn’t love me (when she did). I recognized all my mistakes to her that night, and she still rejected me. I really think she loves me but does not want me back because she is sure i’m gonna hurt her, all over again. For the first time in my life, i’m sure i won’t. Because i’m doing exactly what you said, i’m using this time to think, to evolve as a human. I never liked myself, but i love this new me. That’s why i think this brek up was one of the best things that ever happened to me.
We talked on the phone just now, like 10 minutes ago, and she said she gonna ask me out latter today. I’m not full of expectations, because she seems distant…like she wants to talk to me, but she’s scared. If we do go out tonight, should i do the things you guys said, and… something else?
I’m very afraid. Thanks for helping me, i hope i can hear you guys too!