Thank you both for the reply. So far I have been able to do what feels right for me. The challenging part is that what I’m feeling changes so frequently, moment to moment, really. Its hard to pin down a decision when feelings don’t last and there isn’t a peace with any one direction. I understand there isn’t a right answer, and there will be many more decisions still to come no matter which direction I choose. I guess I really am caught in fear of all the what if’s.