Thanks for your replies.

Lily,

My main life goal at present is to be independent. To simply have a place of my own where I can feel safe, cook for myself and relax. My wages are too low to achieve this for at least another year but in all probability a lot longer.

Living with this understanding also deeply saddens me as I believe I will never have a meaningful relationship until I reach independence, which is nowhere in the near future, and I already feel very lonely.

Alok,

I am trying to think of an answer to your question but I really can’t think of anything yet.