My dear,
I want to send you my hugs. I can relate to the feelings that you are having right now. It’s so tough when your feelings for someone is so strong and they can’t reciprocate. I was in a similar situation years ago and I like to share with you my experience. When your happiness depends on someone else, it’s not a good thing. I was waiting and waiting and one day realized it was the worse thing I was doing to myself. When you are waiting on them, they have this power over you; e.g. in your case, you can’t spontaneously say something, you don’t know if it will trigger something, you don’t know the reactions that can occur. It’s a very exhausting place to be. Well, in my case, one day I just had enough of it and went out to live my life. And I am thriving and consider my life one of tremendous blessings. I made wonderful friends. Life is as sweet as it can be. I am my own person with a heart full of love and joy. I am just sharing this to show that wonderful things can happen when we focus inward. Actually this can be a great opportunity for you to do just that – to shift the focus back to you. Be his friend, and be compassionate toward him. But that’s it. Do the things you love. And do more of it. Before you know it, you are so much happier. And having someone is not really that important. Of course, we always yearn to connect with others. But it’s different when you are happy with yourself. The feelings will just flow. And if it doesn’t, you know it’s not right for you. And you continue on. And I believe the universe always give us exactly what we need when we are ready to experience it. Much love to you.