I am so happy to hear that you have a vice. Working out is my vice as well, it’s amazing how well you can feel after a good run.

I am amazed on how well you recognized the situation just from the short exchange that we have had, I was pushing her to be more self-sufficient and half the time she was resisting. I do have a better understanding of people than a lot of other people; I think one reason for that is because I consider myself a sensitive person. It’s a blessing and a curse. And I still do see the immaturity in her, I just wish I could have seen it sooner and had the courage to bail when it was necessary. I guess the old phrase “love is blind” is not far from the truth.

Right now I am practicing positive thoughts and mantras to keep the pain subsided but one thing I don’t want to do is let her actions change who I am. I still want to offer her words of encouragement and basically kill her with kindness (because that’s the person I strive to be) but I am afraid that she will feel like she can walk all over me and I am afraid I will make myself look like a sucker.

I have been reading more (I just started reading “the power of positive thinking” by Norman Vincent Peale) and I do volunteer coach which I love more than anything so I have that going for me. I also have a friend who just broke up with her boyfriend and we have had each other to lean on, which is nice as well. But like I said, I am a very sensitive person and it just pains me to find out that someone who loved me could act like this.
You have offered me some of the best words that I have heard since the breakup and I feel like I have made a friend even though we have never met.