Your past mistakes do not have to dictate your future. Take ownership for what you did wrong and learn never to repeat the mistake. If you take on an attitude that you are incompetent, you will behave that way. Keep going to your psychiatrist and tell him/her what’s going on. You may need to try different meds until you get the one that works for you. Yes, get a hobby and/or do something you never done before like going to a play or visiting a new restaurant. I wish you the best Jonathan.