Thank you BenzRabbit,

I took some tips from the articles and I thank you for including the song and time to respond to my post. It’s been 6 months of ups and downs but I have to push through it all. I’ve been hearing from my son’s father once a month since September and each time he shows signs of life I show signs of decay. In the past few weeks it’s been the worst with hurtful truths coming to light, not from him but through other means. I guess my sadness stems from losing all hope in this person being an honest person or an involved father to his son…us being a family.