Hey David, I’m sorry to hear that you’re struggling. Like Chris said, take baby steps in cultivating a more positive mindset. I think this starts with accepting. Don’t beat yourself up for being so negative and anxious. That’s reality right now and that’s absolutely okay. Embrace yourself as you are right now and tell yourself that you’re taking steps in the right direction.

Is there a possibility for you to get involved in a small film / photo project? Something that doesn’t come with a lot of pressure or is overly large? You say you’ve lost sight of your purpose and what you enjoy, but it seems to me that you could find purpose and joy in these things as you say you’d love to do that. What about it is it that you love? What about it do you fear/dislike?

Have you ever tried a gratitude journal? Write down 5 positive or nice things that happened to you that day. You might even want to do it together with your girlfriend.

All the best to you.