Hey there,
I know how this feels and it does feel weird. But the fact u acknowledge it is a step in the right direction. What helped me a lot was taking time off in a new place, go for a trip at least a couple of weeks to a new location with a different culture to your own.. it really makes u feel blessed. I really liked going to s.e asia it really opened my eyes to things and staying in hostels/hotels around new happy people, going on tours, hanging out. Its a pretty awesome thing i went with a friend, i would recommend that, but really it is a step by step thing. . Every little step counts be grateful for your opportunity to be 🙂 even if u don’t go on a holiday really make mindfulness part of your everyday.