@helenweiss said:
Hey Stefan! I totally know how you’re feeling. I’ve been through a lot this year. Before April this year, I’ve been to a therapist for almost two years and was prescribed anti depressants for anxiety and depression.
And then I felt better so I didn’t go anymore. Well, I lowered my medication, didn’t go off it though. And my anxiety and depression came back pretty badly. Then last week I went to see my therapist for the first time in months. And she said: well, then you’ll have to increase your medication again. And I did. And after just 10 days I already feel better.
You know, anti depressants are not a miracle thing. It takes hard work and years of therapy to get better. But the medication can change the chemistry in your brain to a point where you’re not suffering and agonizing because of your issues.
I would highly recommend you to see a doctor or therapist and get help. It’s ok not to be ok! We’re all human, we all have flaws. And depression and anxiety are illnesses. And there’s treatment for them – not the best yet – but there are treatments.

Good luck to you and all the best!
xx

Thanks Helen.
I stand by that I’m against taking medication, because of my terrible experience with Accutane (for acne).
I just seem to be sensitive to drugs, so I don’t consider them an option for myself.
The natural root isn’t always helpful either though.

But I agree, we have to see this as a long-term thing and remain patient and celebrate our successes along the way.
I’ve ordered a couple of things this evening which have made me feel a bit happier and I’ll be getting an earlier night in.

I don’t really buy into the anti-depressants though.
I think their effects remain unknown.
Also, serotonin is mainly produced in the gut, so if you suffer from gut problems, you won’t produce enough serotonin in the first place. So, the anti-depressants may not work for everyone because of this – there’s nothing to keep circulating around (as the doctors would explain).
Of course, it’s just another theory, but nobody really seems to know anything for sure.