Hey penguin!
Love your name, btw! Sorry you don’t have happy feet right now. Speaking of which, you might try dancing, or something else that’s physical to help with that cloud in your soul right now. But most importantly, you need to establish some good connections to people. Maybe it is not through school. Maybe it’s not in your age group. Go out and explore and appreciate people, actively get to know them, don’t try to make friends. Try to be a friend and learn about others. It will take the focus off you for a bit so that you can take on life with a little more confidence and ease. Friendship and connection are vital to our mental health. Just remember to give your friendship not go get someone’s friendship! Oh and dump that therapist. If you EVER feel discomfort with a therapist like you described, find a new one. It’s not a match. You may have to try several to find a good match. That’s advice for everyone, btw.