Hi there,

It sounds like you know what your heart wants but your head is telling you something else. I am in a fairly similiar situation at the moment and the thing that’s motivating me to look for another job is that I know that the situation is not going to get better as time goes by. The grind of doing nothing is a terrible habit to cultivate and though others have expectations of what I should do, it’s ultimately my life and I don’t want to look back wondering what might have been when I knew what I should have done.

There is a really good talk that Jim Carrey did a while ago about how he became a comedian that I found quite inspirational. Basically, he said that his father always wanted to be a comedian but he ended up as an accountant instead to provide for the family. However, after 10 years in the industry, he was fired when the company down sized and the lesson that Jim Carrey learned as a child is that even when we do what is percieved as “safe”, you can still fail. So instead of going for the safe option, he decided to go for something he want to do so that way, everytime he hits a barrier it is a lesson to become better in something that he loves.

Hope that helps.