Thanks for your input Adam. I know that I have a lot of negative thoughts going through my head right now, and I know that it only brings more negativity into my life. I shouldn’t have said that I was giving up. I should have said that I was giving up, for the time being. The thing is, I never gave up on something that I loved. I loved my ex at one time, and I fought way too hard for our marriage. It took me six months to give up fighting for it after it ended, and that’s after finding out that she had cheated on me for at least a year.

I don’t know if you were making an assumption that I use women to feel good or for a hookup. I don’t do either one of those, and even when I was a young guy, I wasn’t like that either. I want a shared connection with someone and when we spend time together, it’s meaningful. And yes, I think I am a good guy. Especially when I hear how other guys brag about how they treated women they dated or in a relationship with. I always wanted to have a good relationship with someone. I just picked the wrong person and stayed with her too long.

In summer, I felt confident about things. More confident than I have in a long time. I guess that’s why a number of women were attracted to me then.